Friday, September 11, 2009

how's life.

life's being a bitch like she always is.
its the usual, what's new.

im smiling anyway.

Posted by dawnn at 10:03 AM

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

HEAD BUMP

hello.

how are you?
im fine thank you.

:D

soft head. :(

Posted by dawnn at 4:24 PM

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

damned.

i have decided to give myself 15 mins to rant.
considering the fact that i was late for work today. but i skipped lunch to make up for it. and anyway i'd be OT-ing tonight.

so i deserve this.
maybe.

A love so dark
Akin to blood from a pricked finger
Flowing from the thorn to the stem of a rose
Falls and hits the ground inconspicuously, silently

A love so cold
Like a breath from death himself
Sending chills to depths within, unknown to man
With just one thought, one falls

Into a world of perpetual darkness
Like midnight, when vigor is strongest

A space, reminiscent of a vacuum
Where the air is so still, so bare, so full of nothing

You hear your thoughts flowing with the rush of your blood
Icy thoughts that moves within one's bloodstream

This void, this emptiness, this silence kills
Sucks the life out of all breathing entities.

When the world is devoid of life, light and warmth
You will realize that all comes to a halt
That everything becomes nothing
Absolutely nothing at all

A passage of words that came to me in a dream.
i woke up and wrote them down on a piece of paper.

warning signs are going off in my head.
i realised I'm in a worse off situation than i thought.

morbid, suicidal thoughts infiltrate my head regularly.
techno makes me............ think/feel too much.

i think i need a psychologist/psychiatrist like before.
a person to spill my innermost darkest private secrets to.

a word once so alien has becomes to familiar to me
a word that i never thought would touch me, tainted me
this word, stress, is something i'm trying hard not to show outwardly.
is something i'm trying to dispel within me.

fuck work.
fuck love.
fuck family.
fuck friends.
fuck relationships.
fuck pleasure.
fuck responsibilities.
fuck joy.
fuck everything.

i just suddenly want to leave this country for a while.
and this urge, its strong.






out of breath-

Posted by dawnn at 2:39 PM